Difficult

July 15, 2016 by sirensong1208 22 Comments

Things are not difficult.

They are often much more than that.

I do not lament my circumstances, my problems

I pull myself up by my bootstraps and get on with it

put any pain or sadness away and move forward

confident that ‘this too shall pass’

knowing that there are others

dealing with far worse things.

I plaster a smile upon my face

continue to look after those I care for

friends and family alike

comfort and sage advice

and try to right the course that I am on

if only in my mind.

But lately I feel stranded

and out of my depth.

The sea I am lost in

is cold, lonely

and filled with pain.

It’s not just one thing.

It never is, is it?

Situations, events in real life

that I cannot even comprehend at times.

Things that I could never, ever have anticipated

or prepared myself for

have taken my breath

knocked me down

and made it harder and harder

to get up each day

to remain hopeful

my natural optimism taking a beating.

My reality

is the continuous waves that crash down upon me.

Just as I take a breath

another one smacks into me and I am plunged headlong

into darkness.

Yet even with this

I still get up each day

and start anew.

Doing my best

doing what I can

and hoping that the oxygen

doesn’t run out.

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©SirenSong1208

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